What made you stop being an addict?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Just keep trying

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

Chairman Comer Subpoenas Dr. O’Connor Over Cover-Up Of Biden’s Mental Decline - United States House Committee on Oversight and Accountability - (.gov)

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Anxiety and anger may explain how parenting styles shape life satisfaction - PsyPost

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Kidney disease: 5 symptoms women should be careful about - Times of India

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

The Ozempic era is forcing wellness retreats for the elite to change - The Washington Post

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

This Case Forced Me to Completely Rethink How I Handle the Switch 2 - Gizmodo

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Read that again ☝️

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Person arrested after security threat at Sea-Tac, flights halted - MyNorthwest.com

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

What are the methods used for preserving rice straw in China?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

A hidden 'super-Earth' exoplanet is dipping in and out of its habitable zone - Space

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

If we colonized Mars, what would a human being from Mars be called? I’d assume Martian just as one from Earth is called an Earthling or Terran in the case of Sci-Fi media.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

This was February 2019.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Appendix Cancer Rates Climb Among Millennials and Gen X - Newser

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Do you agree with Kamala Harris that Donald Trump is dangerous?

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

And I can also talk to them now.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

Earth’s Seven Continents Might Be a Myth: Only Six Continents May Truly Exist After All - The Daily Galaxy

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

NY Federal Reserve finds a 'significant share' of companies saying they raised prices on goods not affected by tariffs - Fortune

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

WWE Money in the Bank results: Powell's review of John Cena and Logan Paul vs. Jey Uso and Cody Rhodes, two MITB ladder matches, Lyra Valkyria vs. Becky Lynch for the Women's Intercontinental Title - Pro Wrestling Dot Net

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Astronauts Reveal The Shocking Beauty of Lightning From Space - ScienceAlert

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I did it in my administrator's office.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.